Monday, April 11, 2011

spring has sprung

One of my favorite things ever is noticing the seasons change (except from fall to winter--I HATE that one).  There are times when life seems so busy that you don't even take the time to notice and then it seems as if the seasons changed overnight.  Well, look around, the seasons are changing and it's beautiful!  This is a wonderful gift from God's creation.  I'm in the middle of seasons in my life and am thrilled to be able to see the change happening in my life!

Two things I've never been in my life:  this happy.  this busy.

Life has gotten insanely busy lately what with being in grad school, teaching a new grade this year, planning a wedding, taking extra classes to assimilate into my new grade level and become tenured, and just simply having a life.  Everyone is busy all the time, but this is the busiest I've ever been in my life.  All of these things that keep me occupied are wonderful things that make me oh so happy.  So, I can't complain.  In fact, I have enough time to sit here and write this blog, but I do this because it makes me happy, too. 

Blake and I recently had our first session of marriage counseling with our awesome pastor.  I don't know him all that well, so we had some "get to know you" time and then jumped into some beginning marriage counseling stuff.  The verses I need to focus on are from Ephesians 5,

"Wives, submit to your own husbands, as to the Lord.  For the husband is head of the wife, as also Christ is head of the church; and He is the Savior of the body.  Therefore, just as the church is subject to Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in everything" (vs. 22-24). 

I take my role as a wife seriously and want to truly understand what God meant when these verses were written.  I know it means not that I cook and clean until my knuckles bleed to make Blake happy and give up everything of "mine."  But, what I'm beginning to realize is how God created husband and wife to be representative of Jesus' relationship with the Church.  It's all about love, respect, serving, and allowing Blake to be the leader of our household.  Our pastor pointed out that God created us as equals but with different roles to fulfill. 

Anyways, I'm excited to see all of God's blessings right in front of me and am looking forward to the rest of our counseling sessions.

Today I'm thankful for:  KLOVE, Spring!, my mama and sis sis, and hummus (YUM!)

Monday, April 4, 2011

a shower, tons of tears, dozens of hugs, a million smiles, and one great weekend

We're two months out from the wedding day today--61 days.  It's almost to the surreal point.   We spent this last Saturday in North Platte getting loved on.  And, I mean BIG time loved on.  Blake's fabulous Aunt Pam, cousins Gina, Gracie, and Janie, and good family friend, Tanda, hosted a Pampered Chef Bridal Shower for us.  This was the point in which Blake said (afterward, that is) is the "no turning back" point.  Not that there was any hesitation or questioning, but I know what he meant. 

It started to get really "real" when we were going around the room, everyone was introducing themselves, how they know Blake or I, a cooking disaster, their favorite P.C. product, and a piece of marital advice for us.  Everyone had hilarious cooking disasters, and wise marital advice.

For the last six months or so, while I'm alone in my car or wherever, and I start to think about the wedding day and giving our toasts as Bride and Groom, I can't help but well up and get emotional.  Well, as everyone took their turn sharing marital advice, we got to Blake's Grandma T. who shared with us about the sweet love she's had with Dale for almost 55 years. [I honestly can't remember now what her advice was because it was so precious, I had to hold back tears]  Then, we go back and end with Blake's momma, my mama, and my sis-sis.  Each one gave us sincere, loving, mature advice about marriage with tears in their eyes and a quiver in their voice.  [I have to say again I don't remember a word that was said other than that it was given with such love that it made me cry & as I write brings tears to my eyes]

I am so over emotional (if that's possible) when I think of all the support and genuine love that we have received all our lives, and even more so now that we're engaged.  I felt overwhelmed at the amount of contribution to our Pampered Chef party, but I know that it is only because these people care for my fiance and his family so much, and that means the world to me. 

My mom, sister, Blake, and I had dinner with Blake's parents, sister and her fiance, Granny  & Gramps K., and adopted grandparents, Bill & Theora.  After a lovely dinner, Granny embraced my sister to say goodbye and said to her, "We love your little sister, and so we love you too."  And, that is what family is all about.  It brings such joy to me. 

It was such a fantastic time sharing with all of Blake's family and their friends.  I felt so much love and generosity that when we headed back West, I felt like I was on a high.  It was an inexplicable feeling.  And, I know this is just the beginning.   I'm looking forward to my next shower at the end of the month, my Bachelorette part/personal shower in May, and the wedding in only 61 days.  But, what I'm looking forward to most is spending my life with Blake. 

Today, I'm thankful for : two terrific friends who landed new jobs!, my pup June, wedding fun, family love, all my new Pampered Chef loot, waterproof mascara {which I know now is MUST have for the wedding}  (: